yeah, i am breaking free ;

Thursday, November 30, 2006 @2:21 AM

=) finally can have a decent time to blog hmm todays RJ. haha Reflection journal for those whom dont know what is it. its suppose to reflect upon what you have learn and all the serious shit but today's topic is. too inspiring for me to do a honest point of view. HAHHA ok. here goes
What will what you have learnt in RP be useful to anything that you intend to do during the vacation? Please elaborate.
as you all know i wont work. i wont go out and play what do i do? stay at home play game so how am i gonna answer this question? LOL SO I decide.. to write it honestly lol.

Hmm.. most probably ill stay at home 'CHOING' GAME ( play games for long hours). what i learn in RP. Basically i can apply the PBL concept into the game itself. for example fighting a super strong boss in world of warcraft.basically doing the FMT alone is sufficient for me to find what is needed. for example. what kind of party i need to get ( for example the monster is a fire based. then i will get many offensive ice mages, or the monster hits hard, so i will get many warriors to act as 'tankers') and also what kind of 'buffs' to get for example fire resistance potion.using what i know.( which is what i have). what i dont know (which is the monster) and what i need to find out ( what is needed to kill the monster effectively).

how great Pretending to Be Learning RP system famous PBL system lol x)

and yes. my lapppy 'heavy' DIED BEFORE ME TODAY. some camcorder virus got into it. and heavy got so ill that it cant even start himself and i decide to bring heavy to IT help desk and he was cured UNTIL 4pm which is after lesson. and how was he cured? HE WAS REFORMATED AND NOW HE TOTALLY FORGOTTON ABOUT ME NOW T.T HEAVY FORGETS ABOUT HIS's owner.( yes even msn is gone Scruffles picture was in it . i guess i need to take another picture of scruffles again o well.) whole day without msn was a pain and i cant do research. LUCKILY TODAY DO VIDEO. lol today do lotsa of funny shit videos. apart from the mataphors. we include funny News report ( lol edna HAHAHA ) which is the mad man(Edwin) carrying 2 bamboo sticks chasing dom and i. and also the up comming movie : sian wars. (2 retarded man fighting for a sun.) ya and it end up why dont we make another son instead LOL. dumb i know.ps i was 1 of the retards lol

oh yea. today i was too tired and i slept on the train. guess what i saw after i woke up. i saw this man and these 3 people ( i suppose they are poly students) quarrelling LOL. i was like WTH am i dreaming but. its true. this man ranting for these people "HEY WTF ( yes what the @$%$ ) can you all kindly stand up and give space for those who are going in. @#%@#%@%@% so on and so forth. and those people are like ... showing unwilling expression. then that man called his "gang" lol squeeze those i presume poly students to the door way. AND I MEAN REALLY SQUEEZE HAHAHA until city hall i drop off.. poor guys. and i left the train. and i didnt catch up with those anymore too sleepy. .

im sleepy and sick now tata. happy reading. nice day.

Y!.

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Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @3:41 AM

i have never felt this before. after that day, i felt that i lost myself. my senses. my logical thinking ability. after i looking at the insect at the table. it has lost a wing( for whatever reasons).it is still struggling to fly, but it still falls down ( i didnt touch him).. dispite the numbers of tries, this tiny half wing fly still continues.
then i looked at myself,*shakes head* it has been how long.. i been living my life as an orphan without trying. im such a loser compared to this half winged thing.. this has came across my mind. if i were to attain the state of oblivion( state of being forgotton), will it be a big load off my mind x).

i just remembers how is being dead feels, and figures is just like being drown in the deep pool, everything just gone black. losing your ability to see. feel. and listen. and you just sit down there.. and wait and wait.. eternal vortax of time has pass as you dont even know how time passes.(which what i thinks)
alvin thinks too weird huh.. so fast about death..

and of course i slept too late and goes to sch with cap 18.60 (o.o wth. but also learnt alot from this mr taxi uncle about chinese literture stuffs). so its not totally 18.60 for the taxi ride and also knowledge transfer.

ah what else. yes. i saw someone i liked. hehehe. lets deem this person as Y .its so funny. just that one sight of her just.. enticed me with her innocent behavior. and that makes her beautiful. im like so totally crazy. la for a few days. then what happens.. should i call this luck or. fate or. what. then my msn suddenly pop with her contact. from there onwards, i knew her name. ok lets leave a little suspence and you all shouldnt be looking at this its just for me to write something out before i go boom.

poetry for today:
When all the songs are over
and all the words been said
The sun grows dim across the sky
and the world prepares for bed
I oft can take a moment nowto view the sky above
and whisper God a simple prayerto thank him for your love

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Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @2:39 AM

hmm O lvl's has just ended, all the best. and its the time to enjoy yourself LOL MUHAHAH.and yea all of you has created a train jam at city hall . lol for god sake. and so yea.. another boring day lol. met scruffles whehehe he is soooo fun lol and took a picture of him that day. its at my laptop so ill upload it the next day. tmr's ut studying lol tata.

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Friday, November 17, 2006 @3:34 AM

Whoa XingWei this is gonna be so freaking hard. Theme :Dark Radiance.. here it goes if it sucks dont blame me HAHA. ok. ill begin.

Dark Radiance

The bright sun was extinguish'd,

and the stars

Did wander darkling in the eternal space,

Rayless, and pathless,

and the icy earth

Swung blind and blackened in the moonless air.

and man lost hope and passion,

When all thought were all gone,

There lies a relic that refuses to shine,

This relic was believed to be too powerful that the wielder's power will devoured into it.

There came the evil demon that was causing all the darkness, and took the relic.

The demon thought that it would be able to witstand the power and possess all power.

The relic ended leeching all the life forces of the demon.

the power of demon and the power of relic has became one.

the relic is called. the dark radiance.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006 @3:23 AM

today's rj question is a killer. its <> its like damn it la i never write before poem about myself how am i gonna write it hahaha. stupid bala( thats HER NAME) yes and she is an indian and im a racist HAHAHA what do you think i like this teacher or not . ok . ill stop this crap and post today's RJ ( reflection journal if you dont know what it is)

First , I will write the poem out.

Walking in front unknowingly what’s ahead of my life,
Behaving like a shadow of my nemesis as guidelines of my life.
Confucius’s teachings have been part of my life.
If i were to describe my life as a box of chocolates.
Then my nemesis has taken most of the sweet flavored chocolates off my life.
What are left are mainly the coffee flavored ones.
Trying very hard to taste the sweet ones but to no avail.
Even if it’s slight impossible for now to eat to sweet ones,
Thy will not give up until thy get to taste the sweet chocolates.
Even if it takes my life, thy will still lay down my life for them.
I am still the king of me after all.Ok for the first line is basically as stated. Going through my life without knowing what is ahead of me just foolishly leading my life.
Second line, behaving like a shadow of my nemesis as the guidelines of my life basically a shadow follows what the object behaves and always inferior than the object itself basically I have to behave like my nemesis. For this case my nemesis is my brother. I had to ‘follow’ him in a sense as I have to study better than him which I can hardly to.

Confucius teachings has been part of my life. For this case confucious’s teachings has been used because there is always this person will affect my way of thinking in life like how Confucius believed to be a teacher that refines every man. For this case is my brother, always had ‘psycho’ me to work harder in terms of academically like how Confucius teaches his students about philosophies.

For the ‘if I were to describe my life as a box of chocolates,’ like how life is bitter and sweet. Then my brother has taken all the ‘sweet’ stuffs which is basically the expectation of my families towards my results. Basically I couldn’t beat my brother in terms of academically so I was treated differently in a sense. They favor him more and thus what is left is the coffee flavored ones ( coffee taste bitter hence what is left are those.) even though I tried to taste ( means I had tried very hard to study and gain their recognition I wasn’t able to get at least their agreement.)

Thy will not give up.( means I am still trying now ) thy shall lay down my life.( for this case life is describe as time. Hence even it takes all my time I will still continue to try)

I am still the king of me after all ( as even though I have been living in as if I’m like his shadows. I am still myself working hard to win him and this is me. And hence my life is not all about him and him and him)
End.
and yes i know it sucks lol yes i know as in the poem not the question. but what to do anyway. lol.

now im having trouble with my tummy . it says. feed me food.. and i couldnt go down and buy cause im lazy and.. my house's food rations has depleted . its time to stock up. lol and yea OPEN HOUSE WHeo0t bored. and.. let me think how can i use the Pretend to Be learning system to solve my tummy problem today ( PBL RP learning format ) haha by then i dead la. lol so i decide not to use the PBL rather than. practical solutions now o.o tata

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Tuesday, November 14, 2006 @7:57 AM

OK nato people no action talk only people now we are gonna talk and do the actions now
This friday. Xingwei can use your house? we are gonna use your house as meeting ground.
People please give your reply thru here.
Mail me if you have something on that day.
Eugene you on special reasons so you are exempted sat please send your card designs and card designs. thanks.
Friday people involved
James
XingWei
Wen Ming
Kenneth
Sk
Colin

Issues involve on that day
Class shirt
BBQ or Chalet
When?
What?
AND what to buy
Voting.
Selections
and of course no distractions which is also no games ( you35@#%@%eker)

Reply asap>
the project got delayed because of slow reaction me and R@#%@%ing RP lol.
REPLY SOON

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Monday, November 13, 2006 @5:08 AM

Ok now awarding the longest tag award to............. YenYin lol. here is your prize. A poetry by alvin!

The silent voice arise from the moments.
shines your nature in this light.
You were the one who stood by stride.
Enduring the pain which one could last.
with true heart and balance mind.
Fun and loving is what we see,
pain and disorder is what you had.
and with a true heart guided by
what right, so that it will enhance
and protect each one
Let the gardens of Nature bind it
all who enter within one's will

so whats in your mind of thinking,
puzzles of life pieces that are seperated.
slowly mending them together to form 'You'
did i lost you? did i missed you?
its still a unknown until i fix the puzzles and time will tell.

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Sunday, November 12, 2006 @2:18 AM

Read something today and decide to write something out LOL.

the water reflects the images of your condensed mind
physics people lol come come ! tell me how water reflects the images of your condensed mind.
bored. so ill write one today.

walking in the world of extreme demands.
struggling for survival is everyone's trouble.
Besides this, the meaningless life has gone into depression.
many people turned to the shadows,
lost and never came back.
is it our fault to walk into shadows?
is it our only choice to walk into shadows?
it is not your fault nor you had a choice.
so are you just going to stand over there and do nothing about it.
why not take some time and look at the water.
look at yourself. reflect upon it.
let your meaning of life shines.
are things going to change? its not guaranteed.
but at least you made an effort in it. no regrets.
Even if shadows devours you.i will be here. to try and drag you out of shadows.
make a choice today. or never in future.lol

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Saturday, November 11, 2006 @3:43 AM

before i lost my train of thoughts ill begin with the poetry today

Frequent questions we would ask ourselves.
If only i am able to turn back in time.
If only i put in more effort.
If only i took the initiative.
If only i have done my best.
If only. so many if onlys.

Why? suddenly pop with so many IF onlys. basically one word. Regret

every human with his/her regrets. Hence these inspires me to write this poem today

Unknown towards what is infront of us.
Looking back hesistant towards ourselves.
Rather than being hesistant,Why not start today.
Living in the life of eternal voltex of time is what we deem it for?
Looking forward is what we always say.But are we actually looking forward?
Questions to ask. Whether meaning of life is a mistake by start.
Answer to this is. It wasnt a mistake. But it is a mistake to regard life as a mistake
Why? why? and so many Whys?
Too many questions too little time.Why hesitant now? and start moving forward before
TIME runs away from you. I hereby give you some of my time to start thinking about this.
Whether to continue to hesitate or not. Its your choice.

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Friday, November 10, 2006 @4:49 AM

ahaha After so long. Then I finally got inspiration to write something out of what i feel X.x woo ok here it goes AND DONT LAUGH AT ME ahaha.

The moment you captivated me, your image collides in my mind.
It seem just too real. or never recites.
Your image collides with my mind and decides the fate of my stride.
As times goes by and times go bye.
My mind twirls as it sees you nine.
Used to games and never offline and i saw you online.
Your images just consolidates and made me goes fine.
Seeing you sad makes me sigh.
watching you sigh makes me goes find(finding the problem)
Just to hope that one day you goes fine,
then that very day i will feel fine.
Dispite the fact that i am unable to,
I still hope that you would be fine.
Across the road , across the board.
i will be here all the time hoping that you would be fine.

its done. To you solely my friend that i hope you would be fine some day XD

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