Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @3:41 AM
i have never felt this before. after that day, i felt that i lost myself. my senses. my logical thinking ability. after i looking at the insect at the table. it has lost a wing( for whatever reasons).it is still struggling to fly, but it still falls down ( i didnt touch him).. dispite the numbers of tries, this tiny half wing fly still continues.
then i looked at myself,*shakes head* it has been how long.. i been living my life as an orphan without trying. im such a loser compared to this half winged thing.. this has came across my mind. if i were to attain the state of oblivion( state of being forgotton), will it be a big load off my mind x).
i just remembers how is being dead feels, and figures is just like being drown in the deep pool, everything just gone black. losing your ability to see. feel. and listen. and you just sit down there.. and wait and wait.. eternal vortax of time has pass as you dont even know how time passes.(which what i thinks)
alvin thinks too weird huh.. so fast about death..
and of course i slept too late and goes to sch with cap 18.60 (o.o wth. but also learnt alot from this mr taxi uncle about chinese literture stuffs). so its not totally 18.60 for the taxi ride and also knowledge transfer.
ah what else. yes. i saw someone i liked. hehehe. lets deem this person as Y .its so funny. just that one sight of her just.. enticed me with her innocent behavior. and that makes her beautiful. im like so totally crazy. la for a few days. then what happens.. should i call this luck or. fate or. what. then my msn suddenly pop with her contact. from there onwards, i knew her name. ok lets leave a little suspence and you all shouldnt be looking at this its just for me to write something out before i go boom.
poetry for today:
When all the songs are over
and all the words been said
The sun grows dim across the sky
and the world prepares for bed
I oft can take a moment nowto view the sky above
and whisper God a simple prayerto thank him for your love
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